I am going to answer your question with another question.

Why couldnt you ask a real question???

Things I wish I could say

I wish I could tell you, you are wrong

To tell you that we try so hard

The things behind the scene you never see

Cause your blinded by everything

You think we never try

But were trying so hard just to get by

Thousands of things I wanna do

But I cant pull them all through

I wanna make you happy

I wanna make you proud

But that will never happen

Because everything never goes the way I want

I heard you guys fighting long ago

And hearing you guys fight bring all those memories back

I cant tell any of you how I feel

Cause neither of you understand the position im in

I need to act like nothings wrong

To a boy who thinks im strong

When my entire world is going wrong

I would love a day when you didn’t scream over a thing

You never even mentioned

Because you have no clue what I do to try and make you happy

It will never happen and you know why

Cause you nit pick all the time

Im never thin enough

My clothes are never good enough

My friends are not to your expectations

I live in disappointment in the eyes of my family

Half of it thinks im stuck up

The other half thinks im perfect

I deal with deamons

But you never know

Cause god forbid I let them show

I feel fat almost everyday

And want to live far away

I want to have self confidence like a queen

But forget it I have weak knees

I wont every be happy until the day

The fighting stop

And ill be blown away

But even than ill still be upset
because to you im still a hot mess

I wanna be pretty trust me I do

But somethings are just hard to do

Between school and work and everything else

I put my room on the bottom shelf

I ask vince to do somethings

If I have no time to complete the deeds

Sometimes it go in reverse and I help him

But ill never make anyone happy

I doubt ill ever become anything

But hey im here to prove everyone wrong

Just like the person who called me fat and didn’t know it (you)

And to the person who thought life was handed to me on a platter

It isn’t

I struggle everyday to be happy

And to be told I inspire people

It shocks me

Cause I constantly live in darkness just hoping that the light at the end of the tunnel will come

Im in pain

No one will ever know

I walk around wearing a smile to hide behind a mask

I do this hoping that someone will make me happy in real life

I remember a lot of things not because im weird

But because it makes me happy to know someone remembers something about me

I want to be happy just one day in my life

And not cry myself to sleep or hide my tears from someone else

I live a lie to the entire world

How can I tell the truth

When im afraid of reaction

I double guess everything in my life

I don’t know what to believe anymore

Am I even loved

Am I capable of loving

Im broken

I need to be fixed

Will I ever be

Probably not

The weight I carry is heavy

Music lifts it

But its ridiculed

Nobody understands

I am the way I am because this is what the world created

You

All of you

Not just the people in my home

But the people in my school

The people I encounter during the day

The people I encounter once in a lifetime

I want to achieve

Just to prove I’m good enough

I just want to be

Pretty

Happy

Worth something

Loved

leilockheart:

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So i am at the half way point its February and School ends in June. Senior trip is the day after the Hunger Games premier and I am thinking about WHERE THE HELL DID TIME GO! I remember the first day of High School I remember all the things I’ve done and haven’t done. So far this school year i learned a lot. Like who your real friends are and who the fake bitches really are. I learned that people really do change even though you wished they didn’t because they were a there for a major part of your life. I learned what my real passions were and I grew even more as a person. What I need to get over now is my fear of rejection and just ask this guy to prom and I need to start working out so i can look amazing in my prom dress that i still need to decide on. I haven’t written in forever and its absolutely killing me I have no idea what to do with myself.  

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Not only do l love your question (haha NOT!) but i am going to answer you as well and throughly as possible. Your not the person i like because i doubt your anyone i know. You are a spam and i wont fall for it sooo please go ahead and please drain yourself at spamming me and others and have a wonderful Holiday and weekend! :)

Everytime i meet some guy that i like…. it never ends the way i want it.. like seriously! im sooo done with tryin! cause evrytime i do it ends bad

I dont speak Sapnish well so i think i read it right. I will read it and thank you <3

IM NOT ALONE

FUCK THE NOTES! I’ve never seen so many notes! ö.ö

holy shit the notes O.O

falakalak:

…100% honest opinion…